Child-like Heart: gimme me one of those

Isn’t it crazy how every day following Jesus can be so different? One day, things can be flowing so perfectly, without a hint of doubt in God’s plan for your life, and your like “this following Jesus thing, yeah I got it down!” Then the next day, God is stretching your faith so much and He is suddenly revealing to you selfish parts of your heart that you never even knew existed.

Once God renews some area of my heart, I feel like I just conquered the world. I feel FREE-ER. It's awesome. However, I often put myself on a pedastool after my renewal process and silently tell myself: "I've made it! I've fought the good fight. Jesus, you can go work on somebody else's heart now, because mine is good." 

....and then Jesus is like: "Jessica, I just got started."

and as I'm being convicted of my sin by the holy spirit I'm like:  "Oh...my bad. I forgot this whole renewal thing was a lifelong process, not a 2-week trial."

Today was just one of those days where I realized how WEAK I am. Without God, I am nothing. Without God, I have no strength, without my savior, I am dead. Every good thing inside of my heart and in my life, comes from Him and Him alone. He is my other half, my Father, my everything.

Yet as I write out all of these words to each of you about my desperate need for Jesus with 100% completely honestly, I continue to fail Him. I continue to deny my sufficient need for Him.  I’m selfish, and I waver in my faith in the Lord constantly. I wrestle with idea the that I must come to Him with a childlike heart, every second of my waking day.

I went on google and typed in “child-like heart” and I found an article talking about the characteristics in a heart like this.

Characteristics of a Childlike Heart:
1. Humility
2. Faith
3. Innocence
4. Victory
5. Revelation
6. Transformation
7. Hunger

Gosh. This list is perfect. In what other way am I supposed to be transformed into the woman God wants me to be without having a childlike heart? To have a childlike heart means that I am trusting Jesus as my savior, my hope, my everything. I am giving Him the opportunity to renew me every day by believeing He is the only one who can ever save me. I am going to start praying like crazy for a child-like heart, it is my biggest weakness in my walk with the Lord and something that I so desperately need more of in my walk with Him.

 

 There are areas in my my life where I don’t take my faith as seriously as I should. There are areas of pride in my heart that need to be set aside so I can truly experience what it is like to have a childlike heart.I don’t want to shrug off these little areas, I want to soak up every bit of Jesus and His goodness. Less Jessica, more JESUS.

“At that time the disciples came to Jesus and asked, "Who is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven?" He called a little child and had him stand among them. And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.”
Matthew 18:1-3

So Jesus, if you could please could help me come to you everyday with a childlike heart, that would be wonderful. I'll be saying this prayer every day.

Love ya'll! I hope you are having a lovely evening. :)

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xoxo