There has been a lot of things on my mind lately that have been making me pretty frustrated. I've asked God many times why I'm not in the phase of life that I thought I would be by now. People younger than me are getting married, and since that is something I want so bad, it's really hard for me to accept that I'm not in that phase of life yet. However I've come to realize that my Father in heaven loves me too much to allow for me to experience things that I am just not ready for yet. I don't even want to know what kind of mess I would get myself into if I jumped head on into relationships that I wasn't ready for, or career paths that I wasn't supposed to take. Yet, the struggle is still very much there. It's still hard accepting that God knows me better than myself, and that I'm not ready for many of the dreams and aspirations that He has placed on my heart yet.
Let me put it plain and simple: waiting is hard.
However It's so important to remember every day that we have a Father in heaven who literally is a dad to us. He will lead us and guide us in the direction we should go. We may question His will for us, but He is still faithful. If we continue to trust Him, He will reveal to us a plan for our lives that is greater than anything we could ever come up with on our own.
At this point in my walk with the Lord, I don't even know tomorrow holds.
The best part about this is?
It's exactly where He wants me to be. In His beautiful surrender.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.