I'm not sure why, but for some reason it is this time of the year, during the summer, that I stuggle the most with still being single. It's probably because I see so many other relationships going on around me, and I want nothing more than to just be with my own significant older. Ugh. The struggle is real my friends.
I'll be perfectly honestly, I've been complaining a lot to God about this lately. I've been asking Him to bring my future man into my life RIGHT NOW. I have such a strong desire to be in a relationship with someone, and the desire is only growing stronger. However I'm not just waiting on any guy. I'm not looking for the next "good" guy. I'm waiting on a guy who passionately loves Jesus like I do. Heck, if I wanted to be any old relationship it would be simple. I could probably make it happen in a couple days, to be perfectly honest [not to sound cocky or anything, but it is true, and I am sure many of you Christian ladies can relate].
For awhile to diminish the void of wanting to be in a Christ-centered relationship, I thought to myself that maybe I should take action and go make it happen myself. So I started talking around to some Christian guys, and it was a ton of fun. But then, out of no where, a disruption began in my soul. I didn't have a peace about what I was doing, and I felt like God was telling me that regardless of how badly I wanted to be in a relationship at this present time, I need to submit my desires to Him and focus on the other things that He has called me to do. I knew I couldn't move forward with what I was doing if I didn't have a peace about it from God. So I pulled away, and felt like I had made the right decision.
So now I'm learning that there are two major things that come into play with being in a Christian relationship. Number one, timing is extremely important. You can be like me and have the most passionate desire to be in a relationship and even feel 100% ready to be in one, but if the Lord says the timing is off then you have to listen to Him. I want a peace about my relationship with my future husband that surpasses all understanding, and I think that peace will come when I listen to God and allow it to happen in His time.
Number two, it obviously needs to be a Christian guy. Jesus is the most important part of my life. I talk about Him all the time [because He's amazing and changed my life, of course!]. Every good thing that I have in my life comes from God. I can't imagine dating someone who doesn't share that same love for Jesus as I do. It would be so horrible and discouraging. Thank you Jesus for giving me the desire to be with someone who loves You. I pray that wherever my future husband is right now, that you would give him patience in waiting to meet me, and that he would use his time of singleness intentionally to grow deeper in his relationship with You.
So thanks God, for making it clear to me, that as Your daughter, it is just not Your will for me at this specific time to be in a relationship. I'm not entirely happy about it, but I trust You your Your will for my life.