Be still.

Hello friends!

      Happy FRIDAY. I admit that this morning I actually didn't realize that it was Friday, I honestly thought it was Saturday. Geez, that's what being a college student will do to you, your track of time is completely gone! That's okay though. I am just thankful that it is the weekend and I can relax. Somewhat. ;).

      This morning as I woke up I felt the Lord putting something on my heart. He was revealing a new truth about my relationship with Him. It was a new conviction. {not a condemnation, a conviction friends! don't allow for yourselves to feel condemned by the holy spirit, see it as a joyful tug on your heart leading you in the right direction to God's grace!} Anyways, this conviction from the Lord couldn't be more clear. He said to me: "Jessica, you clearly in no way doubt my love for you, but do you really TRUST that I am sovereign over every single area of your life?" Yep, God hit the nail on the hammer with this conviction in my life. I don't truly trust He will provide for certain areas {very BIG areas} of my life. I say I do, but I don't really mean it. Well, here we go Lord. I'm ready for this next trial, ready as I can be. This is going to be a definite stretching of my trust muscles for the Lord, but He knows I desperately need it.

      So much on my mind, so many things to think about. Grad school, where I will be living next year, finding a job, what I will be doing...and I'm slowly realizing that each of these things are completley out of my control. I can finally admit that I am at the point in my life where I have truly given the Lord the keys to my car. I'm not in control of anything. As much as I still slip up and seek to control the areas of my life, every day ends where I realize I can't do that anymore.

      As happy as I am about finally making it to this point, I'm terrified. I don't like NOT being in control. I want to be in control and I want things to go my way, because I'm a selfish sinner by nature. Thankfully, the Lord is graceful and forgiving, and He is willing to continue to work on my naturally selfish ways.

      One of the verses the Lord has put on my mind today is a very powerful, very simple verse. He whispered deep into my soul: 

         "Be still, and know that I am God." 

        Psalm 46:10

      {And then he said to me: "But seriously Jessica. Be still. Because your freaking out for no reason as you ALWAYS do and your allowing the enemy to jump right in...AGAIN. Don't do that, He's a thief of the joy I died to give you."}

    So God, I'm sincerely sorry for not trusting you. Forgive me of this subtle, yet extremely crucial, sin. I'm listening to your voice today Lord. Help me to be still today and recognize your power over every area of my life. Lord, what do you have for me today? How can I seek you whole heartedly today? Lead me Lord, and please pray I wouldn't doubt your sovereignty over my life TODAY in any way. Like I did yesterday, and the day before, and the day before that...

I love you father. You're my everything.

I hope you all have a blessed day!

Christ is sovereign over your life. EVERY SINGLE DETAIL. Remember that. And when you feel the enemy trying to creep into your thoughts, cry out to your beautiful savior. He's the answer to all of our problems. He is the beauty in the breakdown.

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