answered prayer: even when I'm faithless He's faithful

Here is a couple of pictures from my weekend to begin my post today, I had some fun animal encounters! :) {moo + meow= <3}

Guys, I cannot believe it. I am so excited to share with you on today’s post that I have finally found my roommate for this summer and next year. God couldn’t have answered my prayer more specifically and more wonderfully. She is an awesome, lover of God kind of lady! I am SO thankful. I am seriously in awe of how God truly answers our prayers, to the T!

Before I begin my post, can I just give a ginormous thank you to everyone who commented on my post on Saturday night and was praying for me? Seriously, you guys are the best! You have no idea how much I appreciated those prayers. I instantly felt better once I started receiving all of those lovely comments from you guys, so thank you!

Anyways, The last time you guys heard from me was Saturday night. Saturday night was downright rough. I wrote that post in the midst of tears, completely overwhelmed and confused with God’s direction in my life. I had no answer from Him toward my living situation for the summer and next year, yet I knew He didn’t want me to move because I had been accepted into graduate school {another answer to my prayers awhile back}.

Saturday night was my breaking point. I knew in my heart an answer from God was right around the corner, but I was beginning to seriously doubt God. “If God really wanted to bless me with the roommate that I have been praying for, wouldn’t He have done it by now?” “Has God forgotten me?” These were some of the questions that were running through my head. Deep down, I knew none of these questions were the truth, but Saturday night was the point in waiting for God to answer my prayer where I was at my weakest, The enemy was getting at me when he knew I would be an easy hit.

I began to fight back against the enemy’s lies with scripture, more specifically one of my most favorite verses in Jeremiah:

For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
Jeremiah 29:11

Looking back on that night now, it makes sense that it was my weakest point, because the answer to my prayer was revealed to me the NEXT day. That’s how it usually goes in my tests of faith: when an answer to my prayer is right around the corner; I tend to be at my breaking point.

Anyways, the next morning I woke up super late, almost not even making it to church. My friend texted me at 10:00 am and told me she was buying me coffee, so that motivated me to wake up and quickly get ready. It had been a rough night the night before, and I was truly exhausted. God was directing me to go to church that morning as He always does, but it seemed that morning He was doing everything He could to make sure that I was for sure there at the service that morning.

After church was over, I was standing out front of the building with my friend. I looked over and saw a girl named Ashley from Young Life, who I had heard been looking for a roommate. As awesome of a roommate I knew she would be, I doubted to myself that she was still looking for a roommate. It was already so late in the year, and I was beginning to believe that I was the only person left in this town who still didn't know where she was living the next year. I was so tired of trying to control the situation myself; I had finally come to a point where I was done asking around. God at this point had already closed the door on three different living situation possibilities for me, and I was seriously losing hope.  I had done all that I could from a human aspect, through my constant prayer and letting literally everyone know that I was looking for a roommate. The rest was up to God and God alone. I figured that whomever God wanted me to live with, He would make sure to happen. I continued to talk with my friend. Then, out of nowhere, Ashley appeared in front of me and said: “Hey Jessica! So, I don’t know who I am living with next year, and Julia {one of my close friends} told me you were looking for a roommate. Do you want to live together?”

Your probably wondering how I reacted once Ashley asked me this question. After responding to her with a excited “YES!,” I surprisingly was pretty calm in my reaction, but on the inside I was mind-blown. I’m still mind blown thinking about it, let alone writing this post to you guys. Really God, you love me enough to bless me tremendously despite my continuous doubt in your goodness? I couldn’t believe it. The perfect roommate for me, placed into my hands? This whole time all I had to do was be still and let God do His thing?

Wow.

“Be Still, and Know that I am God.”
Psalm 46:10

Friends, even when I’m faithless, He is faithful. That was truly the hardest trial I have been put through yet in living for Jesus. I doubted God and wavered in my faith A LOT. I had to remind myself the past times of how He had been faithful to me to get me through every day of my trial. I am so happy that I can now look back on how God was faithful to me during this trial, to encourage me in the future when I am tested again.

There were many moments where I could have stepped in through my trial of faith, and figured out the whole roommate thing for myself. But I didn’t want to plan it on my own this time; I wanted God to do it for me because I knew I would be the happiest wherever He placed me. His will for me gives me passion and PURPOSE. Giving Jesus TOTAL control to my life has not been easy, but boy friends, is it sure worth it! I am filled with joy at how God answered my prayer, and this living situation couldn’t feel more right. God is GOOD.

So friends, the next time God is silent in your lives when you are crying out to Him in prayer, know that it is only because He is waiting to give you your BEST. That beautiful resolution you could have never came up with on your own? Yeah, that is exactly what God wants to give you, if you just wait on His timing. God is never too early, but He is never too late. I didn't realize the truth in those words until Sunday morning. It seemed that God was too late on answering my prayer, but turns out He was right on time.

Just 19 days until this little lady graduates from college! I am so excited! Now, onto finding a summer job, lets do this Jesus!