"I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength."
I guess you could say that this verse perfectly exemplifies how I have been feeling lately. Lately, more than ever, I have this strong desire for certain things (more specifically dreams of mine) to happen in my life that have not yet happened. It's hard being 23 and having lonely nights without any significant other by my side. I wish more than ever that I was in a relationship, but clearly God hasn't opened up that door to my life yet. I think we all have that feeling deep down to be in community with others, and thats what I crave. Although I do feel like I have a great community of Christians here where I live, I'm just missing having a close circle of friends. So many friends of mine are moving onto that married stage of life, and I'm not there yet. It leaves me wondering what I'm supposed to do in my free time, and what types of things I am supposed to pursue. I feel a little out of place. Some days are easier than others, thats for sure.
I can't help but wonder when my time will come. When my dreams will be fulfilled, when God will give me the desires of my heart like He talks about in Psalm 37. I'm glad that God put Philippians 4:12-13 on my heart today. This verse reassures me that no matter what kind of need I have, Jesus Christ can satisfy that need. He is the answer to that joy I am searching for in my heart. I may not be exactly where I want to be in my life, but God has me where He wants me to be, and thats all that matters. I have to submit the plans I have my life into the hands of God. If I don't, my life will become a mess. God knows what He is doing, and I have to trust that His plan is always better. I feel the Lord putting the word "submit" on my heart a lot lately, and I think that is because He is reminding how important it is to continuously do this in my walk with Him.
Any other single girls out there having a night in to themselves tonight? Holler at meeeeee! haha ;) seriously though! share a comment below, and lemme know the types of things you like to do in your free time! I figure that one day we won't have this kind of free time when were married, so it's good to pursue different kinds of activities now.
I love you guys! Remember, God loves you SO much and can satisfy our hearts in ways that no human being or anything else ever can! seek Him first :)